And in a way I know what that's like. Not the obesity part necessarily. But to feel like you're not worthy. I'm sure we've all felt like that at different points in our lives. And it's a terrible feeling. To feel like no matter what you do or who you're surrounded by, you're still not worthy. Or that something you've done has prevented you from deserving worthiness. Whether its weight or whatever else...there are so many things that cause this feeling within us.
But no matter what...it's all rooted in sin. We're all sinners. We know that. We were told that from the very beginning. We've all fallen short.
Even better though...we've been redeemed. And we ARE worthy.
Tonight's Biggest Loser overwhelmingly reminded me of that. These people are just as worthy as me of living a happy and healthy life. No matter what they've struggled with in the past. And I love seeing them have this revelation. It's not always during makeover week...but it always happens. At some point they just recognize it within themselves. They are worthy.
And so am I. Even though its something I seem to be struggling with right now. It's not like I realized it while I was watching the show tonight...but its something that's been building up over the past few weeks. Am I truly worthy of being loved? The way I deserve. The way I was meant to be loved? The answer is yes. I am worthy. I just have to recognize it within myself.
This comes from one of my favorite songs from a few years ago...and tonight it's all I seem to be singing in my head.
"I want to be beautiful, make you stand in awe, look inside my heart, and be amazed...I want to hear you say, who I am is quite enough, just want to be worthy of love, and beautiful..." Bethany Dillon
