Sometimes it's really hard to grasp how quickly time passes. But I feel like on several occasions recently I have come face to face with this reality. And its not necessarily a bad thing, just kind of strange.
A couple of weeks ago my sister and mom ran into the family we used to babysit for in high school. The little girls we used to take to dance and pick up from kindergarten are now in high school And the boys are in college...one almost done. It was enough to make me stop and calculate just how long it had been. Ten years. Wow. I didn't even realize it had been so long. And then when I went home for the weekend we saw another girl I used to coach in swim team and babysit for...also quite grown up. I was amazed. It made me feel so old! Not that growing up is bad...its a part of life...sometimes I just forget how "grown up" I really am.
And today was another mile marker. It has officially been one year since my whole life (and world) changed. And to be honest it was a tough day for me. I know it's all in the past and no matter how much I wish things could have been different, I can't go back and change them. But its hard not to look back and feel sad about how everything unfolded. To say I miss the people who were a part of that life is a huge understatement. I feel like a piece of me is still there with them. And maybe it always will be...which is more than ok with me. Just makes it a little harder to move forward. I know when I go visit in a few weeks it will be next to impossible to leave again. But I trust that there is a purpose in everything that has happened and is happening in my life. And I am so grateful for the friends I have here (both at work and outside of)...I'm not sure I could've made it through the day without them to cheer me up!
More than anything it made me once again aware of time. And how in the blink of an eye everything can change. It made me think that just for a while I wish I could slow things down and enjoy the little moments more. The ones you look back on that make you smile. I know there are more of those moments to come, but it's nice to appreciate the ones that have already come and gone every once in a while.
So here I am again...feeling nostalgic. On one of those days where it can't be avoided. All I can say is I have so many moments to thankful and grateful for. And faithful to know the ones to come are just as great (if not greater)! Just need to allow myself to slow down and enjoy them.
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven..." Ecclesiastes 3:1
