I cannot believe that 2010 is already coming to a close. This year has truly gone by so quickly. It's like I blinked twice and it was gone. Crazy.
So as I was driving back to Austin today I started thinking about some "New Year's Resolutions". And I really hate to call them that because we should be able to stop at any point in the year and resolve to change something. But that's neither here nor there really. Now I know most people typically choose to lose weight or workout more or give up caffeine, coffee or smoking even...and this isn't to say I don't need to work on a few of those myself...but I was trying to think of something a little less "trendy" if you will.
And what I came up with is something I think I should continually work on and not just say as of 1/1/11 I'm going to be done with. It is simply this: to let go of all the hurts, hang ups and heart break from my past (to the best of my ability of course, I am only human). This doesn't mean I want to forget about some of those painful (growing) experiences...but it does mean I want to let them go. And it's going to be really hard. I'm sure there will be days where it will be a lot like trying to avoid caffeine...you just want one sip, one stroll down memory lane, to ease the headache.
The big question is...what does this really mean? What exactly am I giving up? And right now it's hard to say what all it entails. It may mean just un-friending some people on Facebook...deleting people from my phone...maybe even letting go of people who are a part of my life but have been a source of pain. Or maybe it's as simple as not dwelling on certain situations and in turn not allowing them to affect my life now.
But let's face it...I'm a girl...it's a part of our nature (or that's my excuse anyway) to take lessons from the past and apply them to the present. Helpful or not. So I'm sure there will be struggles...and temptation to stalk people on Facebook that I shouldn't...but I think it's the best thing for me at this point in my life. Let the past stay in the past and try my best to live in the present. To not let how I handled situations before dictate how I live my life in the future. Sounds crazy right? Well...baby steps. And I'll try to keep you updated on my progress throughout the coming months.
For now...Happy New Year! May your 2011 be blessed with love, joy, faith, and peace.
"You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning. You will be secure, because there is hope..." Job 11:16-18
